That Guy that Holds the Door.

Why lie all this time?

“I’m sick and tired of everybody
Thinking they know what’s best for me and
Maybe god wanted me to be
Nothing special.”

Well there goes my fucking night

Nothing hurts more than not receiving a response, because a response can put your mind at ease, but nothing leaves your mind free to think and imagine all the worst possibilities, that seem so over the top, and yet are so likely.

One step forward.

Two steps back.

Makes you think for a split second that you’re finally going to move on in life, only so you can discover that you’ve pushed yourself further back than where you started.

You know when you find cuts and scrapes on yourself and you dont know how you got them?

Something has got to give,

And I’m sure its going to be my sanity,

Is it wrong that I am more excited to receive playing cards in the mail than to receive a response from a university I applied to?

“Whats the worst that could happen?”

Once you think about it, you realize you’ve been stressed over nothing.

I just need someone to talk to right about now,

Why can’t I understand my thoughts.

Why, oh why internet do you let me hide from my fears and let me hide from actual social contact with people.